Its been 365 days since my mom died. My heart is aching and the tears are flowing. I still pick up the phone to call her and the waves of sadness that wash over me when I realize, I can’t call her are still frequent. Today is the last “first” we experience without my mom. I had a hard time falling asleep last night. I kept hoping today wouldn’t come, that this last first wouldn’t happen. But here we are, July 25, 2010, and she’s really been gone a whole year. She’s never going to meet her namesake, or see what amazing little people my children are becoming.
I miss her. My heart breaks again today. Mom, if you can hear this, I love you. I miss you.